One Year

That is how long Raymond and I have been married on 7/28/13! I can't believe a year has already flown by. When Raymond and I discussed getting married before our actual engagement I didn't think it was a big deal. I mean, we love eachother, we are happy, we already have started a family, we bought a home together - what could possibly change by getting married? As lame as this sounds, the biggest reason I wanted to get married was because I wanted to have the same last name as my kids. It was that simple. To my surprise our marriage did change our relationship much more than just my last name. I feel whole, I feel more in love with Raymond which I didn't think was possible, and I feel like he completes me as a person. I always took our relationship seriously, but now I do on a whole new level. I know how corny that all sounds, but it's true...........it really is. As most of you know, Raymond and I have been on quite a journey together the past almost 5 years. Throughout our journey, especially during the very difficult times, people have lovingly asked me, "Are you guys doing okay? This is a lot to handle.....This can be hard on relationships....." I can honestly say during our very difficult times Raymond and I became closer and more in love with eachother. He is my BIGGEST supporter. He truly cares about my feelings and my opinions. He cares about my mental state. He really tries to understand me. He makes me think about other prospectives when I am being one-sided and stubborn. I, in return, strive to be that person for him. When Raymond came into my life it was random and unexpected. Truthfully, we hadn't been dating long when I got pregnant, but I knew this guy was special so I took it and ran with it. Even if it didn't work out I was going to be a mother and I was determined to be a great mother. Then it was triplets..........then it was preemies..........then it was unbareable loss.......then it was sick children.....and so on and so on and so on. During the entire experience with the babies I kept waiting, almost expecting my whirlwind romance with him to fall apart from the stress, but it didn't. It just got stronger and better and stronger and better. I realized in all this sadness, that was so hard to understand, the Lord brought me this incredible gift. My soulmate. Never did I expect my soulmate to be some redneck from Arkansas who loves country music and guns. The Lord knew and he had plan for us, he brought us together on this journey for a reason. Raymond and I have had many conversations about almost feeling guilty about how happy and in love we felt with eachother during that terrible sadness. That's the truth though. Now our relationship isn't all unicorns and rainbows and I don't mean to make it sound that way. We bicker, we fight, we yell, and we give eachother the silent treatment sometimes. I even go completely psycho on the poor guy occasionally. But that is okay because deep down inside our bond is real and sealed. I guess the saying, "The Lord works in mysteriesous ways" is true. Happy Anniversary to my redneck Husband and the amazing Father to my babies! *****I am posting this now because I get sidetracked on the weekend and might forget*****

The Past

So it's literally impossible for me to recap the last like year and half to be "up to par" on the blog, so what I can do is highlight the major events. Most of you know what is going on in my life anyways ;) One year ago this coming Sunday is my one year anniversary! I can't believe Raymond and I have been married that long already - it's not LONG, but I mean a year fly's by quickly! When we got married I was knocked up again but didn't know it. Whitley Don Brunson arrived at 10:47AM Mountain Time on 4/5/2013 of this year :) Best unplanned idea we ever had and I carried her for an entire nine months! She came out perfect and healthy. Plus she was breathing! That can be taken for granted my friends. Even though I let Raymond name the triplets I decided to let him name her too. She is named after Keith Whitley and Don Williams. Apparently these guys are some of Raymond's most favorite country music singers of all time. I personally had no idea who the hell they were, but needless to say I think he did a great job baby naming for the 4th time. Joe started preschool in October 2012. That was a big one for me. I was so afraid for him to go to school for some reason. He LOVES it and is quite a hit at school. I was so worried for him to be in this big huge school and riding the bus and going to PE and working with new therapists and and and............ I majorly overreact with him, but that is a whole another blog post. Blake is still adorable and wonderful........and HELPFUL! If I would of known how helpful 6 yr olds were I would of wanted them around all the time. He never complains about it either. He wants to help me do anything and I am starting to love our conversations. He is so smart and our conversations have jumped into a new level. He is starting kindergarten this year. Well I think I will leave it at that. I have a crying baby that wants to eat.

Fresh

Notice the new look? The new name? It's a new Jenn and new blog. Okay it's not a new blog it's the same one, but I wanted to give myself a fresh start on it. I love writing. There are way better writers out there then myself, but that is okay. Writing is theraputic and I have decided that my life isn't that busy anymore and to make time for it. I mean everyone is busy not just me and we all need to make time for the stuff we enjoy! I think this is like my 3rd promise to myself to start blogging again......but it will stick.......I think.......I hope! I am anxious to start writing again.